Friday, August 31, 2012

难道爱上你真的是我的错吗?


曾经一直以为自己不懂得爱,也不会爱别人。从小就把自己封闭起来,不喜欢和人说话。直到遇见你。虽然我们相识于网络,可对你的感觉总是那么在意,你伤心,我也会伤心,你流泪,我也会流泪。你病了,我会担心你,你累了,我会心疼你。总之你的一切我都想知道,我不知道这是不是爱,但就是离不开你。

  为了你,我可以失去任何人,为了你,我可以不择手段,为了你,我任凭她们骂我是坏人。为了你,我什么都不在乎,只要你开心,只要你快乐。我想这就是爱吧。爱不就是要包容他的一切吗?你的好,你的坏,你的笑,你的泪,我都想知道,我都想了解。

  每当月色降临,我都会不停的思念你。想着你的好安然入睡。想着你的笑走入梦境。每天第一件事一定是先去看你。如果看不到你,我会很伤心,很难过。你知道吗?我很喜欢你。喜欢和你在一起的感觉。那样的甜蜜,那样的温馨。那样的幸福,那样的快乐。只要和你在一起,什么烦恼都会烟消云散。只要和你在一起,哪怕只有一秒钟,我也心甘情愿。喜欢和你聊天。喜欢和你谈心。

  可是,这一切都只是我自作多情而已,我再也不会得到你的爱了,因为你始终都不爱我。爱这个字说起来容易,做起来却好难呀。

  为什么别人都可以爱,可以想,我却不可以。我爱你了。别人说我坏,我想你了,别人说我狠。我去看你,别人说我有心机,我和你说话,别人说我有手段,为什么?为什么她们都可以爱。我不能呢?我喜欢你。我可以不烦你,只是看看你就好了,为什么看看你都不行呢?

  难道爱上你也是我的错吗?为什么老天如此不公平。我到底做错了什么呀?我只想好好的爱一个人。好好的祝福他。难道这都不可以吗?难道这也是我的错吗?如果爱上你注定是一个错误,那么,我也愿意大错特错。可是,我好冤,你知道吗?我从没有想过要伤害你,可当我满怀欣喜的爱上你时却被别人说成坏蛋。她们说我是林黛玉,眼泪多,心机多。可她们谁又知道。谁又看见我哭的时候呢?

  每当夜晚。我都会想起你。想起我们聊天的情景。我的泪就会止不住的往下掉,就像那首歌【曾经爱过你】。你能看见我留在屏幕上的字,却看不到我滴在键盘上的泪。是呀,你能看得见我的泪吗?

  爱上你,我不后悔,我只希望你能幸福快乐,这就是我最大的心愿了,别人说什么,对我来说已经不重要了,我只在乎你是不是真的幸福了。那才应该是我关心的事,爱一个人没有错,错过了,那就是一辈子,我会永远为你祝福。希望你过得比我好。

  我想告诉你,我不会再做手术了。也不会再吃药了,我会静静的等死。如果有一天你突然想起我。那么就请你为我祈祷吧。祈祷我可以早日上天堂。因为我不想做孤魂野鬼。

  可是,世上还有谁愿意爱我呢?这样的身体,这样的我,一个自私自利的人,还有谁会喜欢我?算了,一切都过去了,错过就是一辈子,我会好的,真的,我真的会好的,我相信自己是好人,好人一定会有好报。

  其实,其实如果真的可以离开,那也是对我最好的解脱了。因为我该做的已经都做完了。我身体的瘤子迟早会癌变,它们一样会把我送到天堂。我也一样会离开。

  有一句话说的好。人之将死其言也善。也许说的就是我吧,在离开之前,我会原谅所有伤害过我的人,我也希望所有被我伤害过的人可以原谅我,饶恕是一种美德,我可以说,我有这样的美德,如果我真的离开了。那么我也可以安息了。世上没有人和事可以十全十美。但惟独美德可以做到。我真的做到了。

  爱上你我没有错,我也是有血有肉的人,为什么别人可以爱你,我不可以?我已经不在乎了,面对身体里的小家伙,我已经不再恐惧和害怕,我只希望它们快快长大,让我可以早早的离开。那样身体上的折磨和心灵上的伤害都可以解脱了............

Friday, August 24, 2012

[Download] May Queen Episode 2 Raw

May Queen Episode 2 Raw

Part 1


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Part 2


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[Download] May Queen Episode 1



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[Download] Arang and the Magistrate OST Part. 1


장재인 – 아랑 사또전 (MBC 수목 미니시리즈) OST – Part.1
Release Date: 2012.08.15
Genre: OST
Language: Korean

Track List:
01. 환상 [ Download mp3 ]

[Download] Arang and the Magistrate Episode 4/아랑사또전 4회

Arang and the Magistrate Episode 4



Title: 아랑사또전 / Arangsaddojeon
Also known as: Arang, Arang Magistrate Story, Arang: Magistrate’s Chronicle
Episodes: 20
Air time: MBC Wednesday & Thursday 21:55
Size : 150 MB
Hostfile : Mediafire

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[Download] Arang and the Magistrate Episode 3/아랑사또전 3회

Arang and the Magistrate Episode 3



Title: 아랑사또전 / Arangsaddojeon
Also known as: Arang, Arang Magistrate Story, Arang: Magistrate’s Chronicle
Episodes: 20
Air time: MBC Wednesday & Thursday 21:55
Size : 150 MB
Hostfile : Mediafire

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[Download] Arang and the Magistrate Episode 2/아랑사또전 2회

Arang and the Magistrate Episode 2

Title: 아랑사또전 / Arangsaddojeon
Also known as: Arang, Arang Magistrate Story, Arang: Magistrate’s Chronicle
Episodes: 20
Air time: MBC Wednesday & Thursday 21:55
Size : 150 MB
Hostfile : Mediafire


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[Trot]남진 - 님과함께 / On The Blue Prairie


Korean/Hangul

저 푸른 초원위에 그림같은 집을짓고
사랑하는 우리님과 한백년 살고싶어 
봄이면 씨앗뿌려 여름이면 꽃이피네
가을이면 풍년되어 겨울이면 행복하네

멋쟁이 높은빌딩 으시대지만 
유행따라 사는것도 제멋이지만
반딧불 초가집도 님과함께면
나는 좋아 나는 좋아 님과함께면
님과함께 같이산다면
저푸른 초원위에 그림같은 집을짓고
사랑하는 우리님과 한백년 살고싶어

저 푸른 초원위에 그림같은 집을짓고
사랑하는 우리님과 한백년 살고싶어 
봄이면 씨앗뿌려 여름이면 꽃이피네
가을이면 풍년되어 겨울이면 행복하네

멋쟁이 높은빌딩 으시대지만 
유행따라 사는것도 제멋이지만
반딧불 초가집도 님과함께면
나는 좋아 나는 좋아 님과함께면
님과함께 같이산다면
저푸른 초원위에 그림같은 집을짓고
사랑하는 우리님과 한백년 살고싶어 

한백년살고싶어 한백년살고싶어

Romanize

jeo puleun chowon wie geulim gat-eun jib-eul jisgo
salanghaneun uli nimgwa hanbaeg nyeon salgo sip-eo
bom-imyeon ssias ppulyeo yeoleum-imyeon kkoch-i pine
ga-eul-imyeon pungnyeondoeeo gyeoul-imyeon haengbog hane

meosjaeng-i nop-eun bilding eu sidaejiman
yuhaeng ttala saneun geosdo jemeos-ijiman
bandisbul chogajibdo nimgwa hamkkemyeon
naneun joh-a naneun joh-a nimgwa hamkkemyeon
nimgwa hamkke gat-i sandamyeon
jeo puleun chowon wie geulim gat-eun jib-eul jisgo
salanghaneun uli nimgwa hanbaeg nyeon salgo sip-eo

jeo puleun chowon wie geulim gat-eun jib-eul jisgo
salanghaneun uli nimgwa hanbaeg nyeon salgo sip-eo
bom-imyeon ssias ppulyeo yeoleum-imyeon kkoch-i pine
ga-eul-imyeon pungnyeondoeeo gyeoul-imyeon haengbog hane

meosjaeng-i nop-eun bilding eu sidaejiman
yuhaeng ttala saneun geosdo jemeos-ijiman
bandisbul chogajibdo nimgwa hamkkemyeon
naneun joh-a naneun joh-a nimgwa hamkkemyeon
nimgwa hamkke gat-i sandamyeon
jeo puleun chowon wie geulim gat-eun jib-eul jisgo
salanghaneun uli nimgwa hanbaeg nyeon salgo sip-eo

hanbaeg nyeon salgo sip-eo hanbaeg nyeon salgo sip-eo



English

Building a house in the picturesque Blue Prairie that
To love others as we want to live hanbaeknyeon
Seeds sown in the spring summer flower tea
In winter, I'm happy with the autumn harvest

A high building, but it's cool dude
Follow the trend of living is the boss
If thatch thickness of fireflies nimgwaham
If I like I like nimgwaham thickness
If you live like nimgwahamkke
Building a house in the picturesque Green Prairie
To love others as we want to live thousand 

I want to live want to live year thousand thousand years

Thursday, August 23, 2012

[Download] Arang and the Magistrate Episode 1/아랑사또전 1회

Arang and the Magistrate Episode 1


Title: 아랑사또전 / Arangsaddojeon
Also known as: Arang, Arang Magistrate Story, Arang: Magistrate’s Chronicle
Episodes: 20
Air time: MBC Wednesday & Thursday 21:55
Size : 150 MB
Hostfile : Mediafire 

Arang and Magistrate episode 1 [ Download Mediafire ]
Password Mediafire : onew

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난 질식 해있어

너무 힘들어, 난 숨을 쉴 수가 없어요. 모든 사람들이 내가 가장 좋은 결과를 얻을 것으로 기대하고있다. 그러나 왜? 왜 저를 이해하지 못 하겠소? 정말 원하는, 그들은 전혀 이해를하지 않습니다. 내가 너무 내 자신의 자유를 갖고 싶어. 내가 원한건 당신의 이해했다. 내 자신의 방법을 선택 주시기 바랍니다.


오빠, 난 당신이 날 지원 바랍니다

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Lame Sketching of Mine~!


Imma giving a serious thought about make a sketching book with all the sketches I've done before. Well it did cost some money but that is not the main problem here. After all even if I did it, what should I do with it?

The main problem is, I can only sketch when there is inspiration. Well apparently, those inspiration only came after mid-night..that is wht I hate the most. I am an early sleeper. Can't stay too late these days. Having migraine and severe headache.  

Monday, August 6, 2012

I Miss You damn Much And It Is Painful

 

听完你说goodbye之后我自己掉眼泪自己那么用心
那么投入到底为了谁你总是说不必太过太过在乎谁
这样只会令自己越来越累
每天醒来我都告诉自己要少爱你一点
好让离开那天自己可以好过一点
可是一天不见我就在夜里梦见你好几遍
醒来的时候才发现你已不在身边
每一个女孩都期待能拥有爱能够被人爱不受伤害
我对你的爱我不明白何时变成了依赖每一个女孩都期待
能拥有爱 never say goodbye 不要再分开
I''ll never make you cry i''ll treat you right
Feel the love close your eyes
I think I am in a very weird mode. My lifestyle seems so different than a few days before.
All I did today was this:

I wake up to the thought of you
I keep re-playing in my mind the last contact we had
I at least once an hour wonder where you was and what are you doing
All songs remind me of what it’s like to be with you, or without you
If a phone call, text message, or email isn’t from you, I am disappointed
One minute I am certain that you wants me as much as I want you, the next minute I am imagining that you doesn’t want me at all
I wear my friends out talking about you
I feel like I am out of control but I feel alive at the same time.

Aoi
06.39 p.m
06/08/2012

I fall in love with you!!

I feel so much for one boy, and really this is just admitting that I'm in love with him.

Although I speak about you so much
Although everyone can see it
I would never admit it
Admit how I feel
When I first talk to you
I just thought it was a silly crush
Over time it grew on me; you grew on me
I found myself smiling, then I found myself thinking of you
I tried not to cry, but tears still broke through
I always asked myself could it be true?
Or is this just a one off thing
You made me smile, you made me feel special
I know you don't feel the same, but I want you too
I've never admitted this to no one, not even you
I think I've fallen in love with you

-Aoi-
11.26 p.m
05/08/2012

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Seven Days With Nick!



Welcome to Seven Days With Nick! Don’t let the title fool you. This section really has little to do with me and everything to do with Jesus. Relationships are crucial during this journey called life, and making a first time decision to ask Jesus to become your Lord and Savior ranks right at the top.

It’s difficult at best to find just the right way to reach the most people with this message of salvation. I’ve been going over and over it in my mind. I started replaying my personal encounters. Realizing that I could use my own experiences and transform them into a seven day script, I have designed a life changing guide.

If I had it my way, we’d sit down face to face at the quaint neighborhood coffee shop around the corner. You and I would discuss the hope found in Jesus Christ, and also cover the other details of life. We might even become friends and start meeting regularly.

I don’t want to overstate anything, or put myself on some pedestal, I only want to encourage you to become closer to God. So, with a bit of a twist and some creativity, I’ve discovered a way for us to spend some quality time together.

It’s as simple as clicking on the yellow button below entitled, “Are you ready?” Of course, you’ll have to use your imagination and go along with the dialogue, but in the end, I pray that you have furthered your walk with Jesus.

-Nick


All the story was credited to Nick

From No Limbs To No Limits


Because Nick's unique personal story gives him entrée with children, teens, and adults of any nationality and from various backgrounds, he is able to speak into the lives and hearts of many! His disability does not in any way diminish his ability to inspire and spark the flame of hope in people's lives. Nick's authentic love of Christ shines through him so penetratingly that people are literally captivated and disarmed when they realize that he genuinely rejoices in his circumstances. Almost without realizing it, they discover that they too, want that same "thing" that they see so clearly displayed in Nick's life and messages. What they truly desire so greatly for themselves is, of course, Jesus Christ the Lord; since it is He who is loves us, and died for us to give us a new life in Him. Jesus Christ is the one and only power-source that can effect change so profound and transformational in a person's life. "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you…" Matthew 28:19-20

You know, knowing Christ is not a religion, it's a relationship. I've known Him for 17 years now and never regreted it or doubted Him. If you don't want to believe, He's not going to force you to believe or get to know Him, that's why it's called a free will. Like Nick said, miracles do happen, and that's a fact, and a miracle is something science can't explain, and still exist, so why wouldn't God?
God doesn't love sin but He love the sinner and forgive them for who they were.

Future Diary

Since I have nothing to do right now while waiting for lunch time,I guess I shall blog!A short update on my recent addiction :P Some of you asked me why do I sleep so late, I'm already trying my best to sleep earlier but recently I started my anime and japanese drama marathon again.lol.The last anime I watched was Another.The creepy horror anime about a class myth and everyone dies and stuff like that, so I was hoping too watch anime like that but I couldn't find any until I started watching The Future Diary.


I didn't plan to watch this anime when I read about the description,idk why cuz I think it'll be some monster killing anime again.I knew about this anime before I watch Another but I didn't watch it until one day, which is 2 days ago, I was so bored scrolling PPS to find something to watch, and I decided to give it a try.

I thought I'll be wasting 20 mins watching a stupid anime but end up I'm f*cked.I watched 10 episodes in 2 days wtf.The story is very interesting, it's like Hunger Game, just that this is "Diary Game" wtf I'm so bad in describing.So 12 people in one battle,the contestants must try to find and kill all the other contestants before the world ends on Day 90, and only the last one standing can prevent the apocalypse and become the new God of Time and Space - yup,I totally copied that from wikipedia lolllll...

So the main act is Yuki, a coward who gets a psycho girlfriend Yuno.Idk whether I hate Yuno or what but I like how psycho is she.lol...


I'm gonna watch episode 11 soon and I heard there's a Japanese Drama base on this anime too.I guess I'll finish the anime first before watching the drama one.Speaking about drama,I just found out that there's a new japanese GTO drama!GTO is one of my fav anime and the new GTO 2012 drama is quite similar with the anime,even Onizuka looks alike.lol
Imma go for lunch then...Bye

Friday, August 3, 2012

Why Do You Think That You Can Judge Me!!

There is so many people on this earth who are so certain they understand and they just seriously don't! It's so annoying how people always think their way is right, they know what you think every second of every day and they just have you all figured out. Well news flash, you don't! I don't think anyone on this earth can understand someone more than you understand yourself. It's just not natural.

I spend 24 hours a day 7 days a week being me, you must see me for about 5 hours 5 days a week. How can you possibly know more about me than myself? I didn't know you could read my mind. I didn't know we shared the same thoughts and feelings and had the exact same experiences in life. Oh yeah, that's right. You don't.

It's one thing that annoys me. You can't understand me more than I understand myself. I'm a terrible person when it comes with words so often if I even begin to explain it, it's already wrong. Which is completely my fault, I understand that much. However when you go pointing fingers and getting all worked up over something you can't possibly get. It's just being idiotic. People care, yes. I get that. People shouldn't go acting like a know it all because they THINK that THEIR OPINION is FACT.

Let Me Let Go of Yo Completely!!

I miss you when something really good happens, because you’re the only one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you’re the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night and think about all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life. But now, all I will do was forget you. The memory about you. Everything about you that hurt me deeply inside. Cause, Imma fine a new hope and make sure it won't hurt me as much as you did to me. I don't miss you. I miss the laughs. The smiles. The good times. The way things were. Now, I don't know who you are. Sorry because I want to forget you. I didn't meant to hurt you just that you make me feel annoyed and also you son't have faith in me nor believe me. 
-Aoi-
26/5/2012
-Re-type the letter-
Been hurt in a relationship is a normal thing, but to recover fully from the scar was not an easy task. I might sound mature, but all I want, all I need was the most care from the right person, the most love from him. What can I do when there is no other people to care for me? Well Imma still finding the answer... :)
 

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